lindsey i am OBSESSEDDDD that you have kept these snippets from your childhood/teenage years! lowkey inspired maybe…..should i post some of my diaries…..hmmmmm. much to consider.
there’s something about having a crush. it feels completely different to any other sensation! the freshness, the uncertainty…totally exhilarating. i also dream about my middle/high school crush, who wanted very little to do with me and yet somehow still manages to creep around in my subconscious years later! but i am just addicted to being rejected i think, and i don’t get that in my happy loving longterm relationship lmfao. nothing to yearn about over here, and oh how i miss it!
you MUST! at least send me pics of them :') i'm so glad i saved everything! it's led to really nice moments of reconnection with people who knew me in those younger days, and i love hearing about memories that these posts bring up in other people <3
i love everything you said about crushes and omfg especially "addicted to getting rejected" -- maybe me too?? i never thought about that! this is why we submit to lit mags :-) i feel relief when people i know, like you, who are also in good, loving relationships admit to missing yearning. it doesn't mean i'd trade in my stability for it, but it's nice to give myself permission to be like yeah i miss that feeling, and i probably won't ever have it again in the same way. there's a reasonable grief to that, i think!
Hold the fuck up, you slow danced to WITHOUT YOU BY AVRIL lmfaoOoOo
Lindsey, jesus christ this is excellent. I, too, am plagued ABSOLUTELY PLAGUED by dreams about Mark, my first middle school BF (of Dashboard public pool fame)-- love your idea that it's our first taste of yearning we return to.
I am so happy i'm not alone hahaha....Mark is iconic. but now hearing you say that, im like maybe we dream about these men because we keep writing about them HAHA. but i think it's a chicken or the egg type situation. AIM was both amazing and cruel for sure. might have to dive into facebook chat lore next, which i think was equally amazing and less cruel (but even more soaked with erotic yearning). <3
lindsey i am OBSESSEDDDD that you have kept these snippets from your childhood/teenage years! lowkey inspired maybe…..should i post some of my diaries…..hmmmmm. much to consider.
there’s something about having a crush. it feels completely different to any other sensation! the freshness, the uncertainty…totally exhilarating. i also dream about my middle/high school crush, who wanted very little to do with me and yet somehow still manages to creep around in my subconscious years later! but i am just addicted to being rejected i think, and i don’t get that in my happy loving longterm relationship lmfao. nothing to yearn about over here, and oh how i miss it!
you MUST! at least send me pics of them :') i'm so glad i saved everything! it's led to really nice moments of reconnection with people who knew me in those younger days, and i love hearing about memories that these posts bring up in other people <3
i love everything you said about crushes and omfg especially "addicted to getting rejected" -- maybe me too?? i never thought about that! this is why we submit to lit mags :-) i feel relief when people i know, like you, who are also in good, loving relationships admit to missing yearning. it doesn't mean i'd trade in my stability for it, but it's nice to give myself permission to be like yeah i miss that feeling, and i probably won't ever have it again in the same way. there's a reasonable grief to that, i think!
Hold the fuck up, you slow danced to WITHOUT YOU BY AVRIL lmfaoOoOo
Lindsey, jesus christ this is excellent. I, too, am plagued ABSOLUTELY PLAGUED by dreams about Mark, my first middle school BF (of Dashboard public pool fame)-- love your idea that it's our first taste of yearning we return to.
Also.... AIM was amazing but also so cruel?
'how about we both try' :')
I am so happy i'm not alone hahaha....Mark is iconic. but now hearing you say that, im like maybe we dream about these men because we keep writing about them HAHA. but i think it's a chicken or the egg type situation. AIM was both amazing and cruel for sure. might have to dive into facebook chat lore next, which i think was equally amazing and less cruel (but even more soaked with erotic yearning). <3