This was brutal 😭 so sorry. The video (unsurprisingly) shows so much love and fun in your relationship! Whoever eventually joins your family will be so lucky to have landed with you two. 💜
Oh I am sorry for your losses. Your writing is so strong and full of pathos, to the point where I grew teary eyed and I felt a knot of sadness in my stomach. This devastating story feels like a punch in the gut. Brilliant to write 2nd person, because this open style allows the reader to see your individual experience from their own perspectives. The video of you two is so full of love and elation. Thank you for sharing your complex experience grief and loss, so vividly contrasted against a life filled with love, joy, and hope.
This is such a generous and thoughtful comment, Jessica, thank you so so much. You know what's kind of wild is I've never written in second person in my life! My hands just started doing it. I wondered if it was a subconscious way to distance myself from the pain, but I like your logic better lol <3
thank you so much Jonathan, I really appreciate these words <33 part of me feels like it's sort of...trivial? to still care about the quality of the writing after an experience like this, but i do, and i guess it isn't, because the writing is the vehicle for expression of feeling and truth. idk. my mind has to overcomplicare things, lol. thanks so much for reading and sharing this.
Late to this post but just wanted to say this is heartbreaking and beautiful and there is so much realness here and I wish I could send you a big hug through the internet without it sounding weird but here you go. ❤️
Hi Lindsey, this was so beautifully heartbreaking. I'm so so sorry you went through such gut wrenching things. I just wanted to let yo know that when you talked about talking to your spirit baby my heart flipped. When I was 17 my boyfriend and I thought we were pregnant. (We weren't) but that experience led me to a connection with my spirit baby. 2 years later I still talk to her and she lets me know that when it's time she'll come back. I hope your spirit baby comes to you when the time is right and I hope its so wonderful and beautiful. Sending all my love. <3
Brooklynn, I'm crying!! This is so gorgeous. Thank you for sharing your experience. I one hundred percent believe you and your spirit baby already have a deep bond. It helps me to remember that I am only one part of the equation. If my spirit baby isn't ready to enter the earth realm (and lowkey like i don't blame them LOL) then I don't want to push them. This year I'm really trying to trust in divine timing and surrender. Thank you again for your kindness and love, I feel it. Say hi to your spirit baby for me <3
Lindsey, the amount of times I felt my throat tighter with “same” while reading this is crazy. Down to the Hailey Bieber part which made me laugh now but I distinctly remember feeling like “Of course she’s pregnant!” After my second loss. I also relate to not wanting to text friends or family. I’ve straight up not told some family because it’s just like I can’t stand their sympathy again. I really enjoyed the poetic nature of the way you shared your experience. Thinking of you!
Ugh!! </3 Thank you so much for reading and for sharing your thoughts. Had a random (well, not so random, as I'm a month away from what would have been my first due date) bout of grief this weekend and it just sucks. I don't wish it on anyone else, but when I find people like you who have experienced it and get it, I am really grateful for that understanding. I completely understand not wanting to share with some family, and I guess that's the nice thing: we have total agency over who we tell, how we talk about it, how many details we want to share etc. Like I guess that's the one thing in our control, lol. Anyway, thank you again for this--thinking of you too!! <3
I appreciate your vulnerable and beautiful writing, although reading this hurt. I am so sorry for your losses. I had two miscarriages between my daughter and my son. It felt like I would never have another baby. Keep going. It gets better. Sending my love. <3
this is so kind, rojeen. thank you. during this difficult grief journey, i'm finding that i'm most comforted by stories of women having miscarriages and then going on to have a baby. i still have hope <3 thank you and sending love right back!
I want to start by saying you have such a gift. The gift of bringing us along with you in such a way that makes one feel like it is their very own experience. Your writing is truly beautiful and raw, and this is clearly testament to the kind of person you are!
I really am sorry for your loss but I pray for brighter days and a brighter future.
I’ve seen a quote somewhere that says “we haven’t met all the people we’ll love yet” and one day I truly pray that and your lover will meet that beautiful soul you’ve felt so connected to.
Crying before 9AM on a Wednesday, this is beautiful and heartbreaking and touched me deeply. Thank you for sharing this huge piece of yourself. Sending you love!!!
This was brutal 😭 so sorry. The video (unsurprisingly) shows so much love and fun in your relationship! Whoever eventually joins your family will be so lucky to have landed with you two. 💜
this is the nicest, Faith, thank you so much <33
felt this so viscerally, a testament to your talent as a writer and willingness to share with your readers 💗 sending you love
this was such a meaningful message to see in my inbox, Evie. thank you so much. love felt, sending it right back <33
Oh I am sorry for your losses. Your writing is so strong and full of pathos, to the point where I grew teary eyed and I felt a knot of sadness in my stomach. This devastating story feels like a punch in the gut. Brilliant to write 2nd person, because this open style allows the reader to see your individual experience from their own perspectives. The video of you two is so full of love and elation. Thank you for sharing your complex experience grief and loss, so vividly contrasted against a life filled with love, joy, and hope.
This is such a generous and thoughtful comment, Jessica, thank you so so much. You know what's kind of wild is I've never written in second person in my life! My hands just started doing it. I wondered if it was a subconscious way to distance myself from the pain, but I like your logic better lol <3
Gorgeous heart and craft. I love the video so so much. Thank you for sharing it. Thank you for not deleting it 💓
crying <33 love you erika
❤️🩹❤️ thank you for sharing this with us
<33 thank you so much for reading, Eleni
Incredibly sharp writing, bone deep insight. Sorry you went through this ❤️
thank you so much Jonathan, I really appreciate these words <33 part of me feels like it's sort of...trivial? to still care about the quality of the writing after an experience like this, but i do, and i guess it isn't, because the writing is the vehicle for expression of feeling and truth. idk. my mind has to overcomplicare things, lol. thanks so much for reading and sharing this.
Late to this post but just wanted to say this is heartbreaking and beautiful and there is so much realness here and I wish I could send you a big hug through the internet without it sounding weird but here you go. ❤️
Oh Madeleine!! I feel the hug!! Thank you for this <3 truly, I feel it. Appreciate you <33
Hi Lindsey, this was so beautifully heartbreaking. I'm so so sorry you went through such gut wrenching things. I just wanted to let yo know that when you talked about talking to your spirit baby my heart flipped. When I was 17 my boyfriend and I thought we were pregnant. (We weren't) but that experience led me to a connection with my spirit baby. 2 years later I still talk to her and she lets me know that when it's time she'll come back. I hope your spirit baby comes to you when the time is right and I hope its so wonderful and beautiful. Sending all my love. <3
Brooklynn, I'm crying!! This is so gorgeous. Thank you for sharing your experience. I one hundred percent believe you and your spirit baby already have a deep bond. It helps me to remember that I am only one part of the equation. If my spirit baby isn't ready to enter the earth realm (and lowkey like i don't blame them LOL) then I don't want to push them. This year I'm really trying to trust in divine timing and surrender. Thank you again for your kindness and love, I feel it. Say hi to your spirit baby for me <3
Lindsey, the amount of times I felt my throat tighter with “same” while reading this is crazy. Down to the Hailey Bieber part which made me laugh now but I distinctly remember feeling like “Of course she’s pregnant!” After my second loss. I also relate to not wanting to text friends or family. I’ve straight up not told some family because it’s just like I can’t stand their sympathy again. I really enjoyed the poetic nature of the way you shared your experience. Thinking of you!
Oh and I’ve also had the “get hot/fit” revenge thoughts too:)
Ugh!! </3 Thank you so much for reading and for sharing your thoughts. Had a random (well, not so random, as I'm a month away from what would have been my first due date) bout of grief this weekend and it just sucks. I don't wish it on anyone else, but when I find people like you who have experienced it and get it, I am really grateful for that understanding. I completely understand not wanting to share with some family, and I guess that's the nice thing: we have total agency over who we tell, how we talk about it, how many details we want to share etc. Like I guess that's the one thing in our control, lol. Anyway, thank you again for this--thinking of you too!! <3
I don't even have the words. <3
no words necessary <3 thanks so much for reading and commenting <3
I appreciate your vulnerable and beautiful writing, although reading this hurt. I am so sorry for your losses. I had two miscarriages between my daughter and my son. It felt like I would never have another baby. Keep going. It gets better. Sending my love. <3
this is so kind, rojeen. thank you. during this difficult grief journey, i'm finding that i'm most comforted by stories of women having miscarriages and then going on to have a baby. i still have hope <3 thank you and sending love right back!
So open. Staggering. Thank you for sharing. Sorry for your loss.
Thank you so much for reading, John <3
I want to start by saying you have such a gift. The gift of bringing us along with you in such a way that makes one feel like it is their very own experience. Your writing is truly beautiful and raw, and this is clearly testament to the kind of person you are!
I really am sorry for your loss but I pray for brighter days and a brighter future.
I’ve seen a quote somewhere that says “we haven’t met all the people we’ll love yet” and one day I truly pray that and your lover will meet that beautiful soul you’ve felt so connected to.
❤️❤️❤️❤️
This was a really beautiful message to receive--I'm so grateful. That quote is deeply moving. Thank you so much for this <333
This was utterly heartbreaking. So much raw emotion. Thank you for sharing, and I hope you're doing as ok as you can
Lucy, thank you so much. Comments like this give me a feeling of joy and love that I am really trying to savor. It helps. Thank you <3
Crying before 9AM on a Wednesday, this is beautiful and heartbreaking and touched me deeply. Thank you for sharing this huge piece of yourself. Sending you love!!!
so kind of you to share your thoughts Annie, thank you so much. I feel the love and appreciate it immensely—sending love right back at you <33
Sending you a really big hug xx we’re so lucky that you share this with us. We’re with you 🖤
Thank you so much for this. It warmed my heart 🩷🩷 appreciate you <3
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